NOTES ABOUT RECEIVING...

Someone told me recently that I was inspiring to them. I have heard this several times before, but it usually hits my invisible force field of "I'm not worthy of that compliment" and bounces right out of my energy field.

DEFLECTED. Moving on.

Now it's important to note here that I do say that I want to inspire people. It's my mission to do so. And yet as soon as I was offered a taste of success in that endeavor, I would purse my lips together and refuse like 2 year old who didn't want to eat her peas. What the hell?! Now, obviously I wouldn't outright reject the compliment, that would be rude and I've been conditioned by society to be better than that. Ha. So I would say thank you, while inwardly cringing, or maybe l'd say no, you are the one who inspires me. etc. The point is that my energy field would not open up and accept and revel in the pleasant feelings of the compliment. I wasn't able to fully open the gift being offered and feel the satisfaction in what l'd accomplished. And why not? Idk. It felt too smug. Too arrogant. Too self-serving. I 'know' better than to believe all of that. I know my wisdom is valuable and I believe it's always inspiring to someone, but for a long time the feelings of deflection were still overriding my knowing. But was it really safe to accept and receive that I deserved the recognition for my work and deserved to feel myself being received well?I had to feel into layers of judgment that were projected onto me by others and also that I had projected onto others for shining too bright, or for being too much.

ALL BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID TO SHINE AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT.

Never would have admitted it, even to myself. Hard to fix a problem we're unwilling to look at, huh?

I've practiced fully receiving in so many areas of my life now that it feels more and more natural to accept compliments from others. It's a simple place to start, because many of us have felt that discomfort before. That need to deflect or make

ourselves smaller. To fit in. To not risk being seen. What we have to realize is that when someone gives a compliment they are doing it as much for themselves as for you. It is a gift to the giver to see you receive it and to see that they've made your day better at that moment. When we openly accept and receive it, we not only delight the other person but it allows the positive energy to flow between us

both and find overflow in other places of each of our lives. To vibrate out from us and into our environment with a ripple effect. When we shut down the compliment, close off our energy and refuse to accept it fully, it constricts the energy coming in cutting off the flow, so that it dies within us. The fullness of the experience is denied for both people and there is no overflow to spread. Wow. All because we're so deeply and subconsciously afraid we don't deserve it or we're afraid to feel too good because we might get disappointed, or we think we will be perceived as full of ourselves, or maybe it's some other reason entirely.

WHATEVER THE REASON IS, IT'S WORTH DISSECTING WITH A CURIOUS MIND TO SEE IF IT'S ACTUALLY TRUE OR IF IT'S A LIE THAT YOU'VE BELIEVED FOR SO LONG THAT IT JUST FEELS LIKE TRUTH.

This time there was a new level of pleasure that I felt from receiving that compliment. I felt deserving of it and lit up by it. I knew that my ability to receive it had amplified that energy back to the giver and even beyond that exchange. It signaled to me that I am on the right path, doing the right things. And even though it sounds too easy, the 'right things' include just showing up. That's it. Showing up as my true self and not worrying if I'm not perfect. Just being me and seeing who's here for it. Who resonates with the energy of my heart and soul. Who feels my vibration when I speak or share and gets stirred somewhere within themselves to rise up. To use their own voice and speak their own truth. Or to bravely face what's next for them, instead of hiding and pretending. Or maybe someone gets triggered by me, and hopefully then realizes the projection is showing them where they have work to do or healing to complete. I do know this: I never thought I could be an inspiration to anyone. My entire life, until recent years, has felt like a series of unfortunate events.

I know struggle.

I know pain and abuse.

I know self abandonment, loss, shame and deceit.

I know and have felt through the lowest of lows, which has allowed me to experience some pretty amazing highs.

One of the most important lessons I've learned is that the only thing in the way of what we desire to experience in our lives, is ourselves. The answer is always within us.

WE HOLD THE POWER TO CHANGE EVERYTHING AND TO CREATE A DIFFERENT REALITY. AS SOON AS WE CHOOSE TO.

It means no more making excuses for why you are wherever you are.No more playing the victim to whatever circumstance you've given your power over to.

No more blame.

It takes self-responsibility and emotional intelligence. It takes courage and grace.

YOU CAN LEARN TO MASTER YOUR EMOTIONS AND KEEP YOUR BODY CALM WITH A REGULATED NERVOUS SYSTEM.

You can learn how to recognize your own patterns of thinking and the emotions associated with them. You can learn how to feel and how to train your body to be a better and faster FEELER which increases you're emotional intelligence.

You'll learn to encounter any emotion, energy, thought, trigger etc, and understand why it is there for you to experience and how to alchemize it on the spot so that it serves to increase you're momentum towards what you desire to create in your life, instead of stopping you in your tracks, confusing you, causing overwhelm, helplessness and victim mentality to take over.

I have always walked the long road or the harder path. Sometimes accidentally, but many times purposely. I guess I like to experience for myselfhow difficult it can be before finally coming out victorious on the other side! In my healing journey to learning emotional intelligence and energetic mastery, this has served me well. On one hand it took a lot longer than it needed to. I had resistance at every step to overcome. On the other hand, it has made me well-qualified to lead others through this process because of the experiences I have had and because I've tried every avenue and really been able to understand how each tool is most effectively

applied and how different we all are in what tools we prefer and find success with. It's such a personal journey for each of us and I am well-equipped to help intuitively lead you through if you need support and encouragement.

I'm so happy that you're here with me right now and I hope finding some inspiration. Listen to your heart and when you know something is for you, learn to say YES to yourself. That's where you start following the true magic. Let's get you to the place where you are trusting yourself fully and trusting when you feel a YES and when you feel a NO. Leading yourself through life with your own best interest at heart.

You are an inspiration to me.

PS: Practice just saying, "Thank you, I fully receive that." when you have a compliment coming in. It feels so awkward at first, but luckily most people have been on that awkward side of a compliment and will understand, while also enjoying the moment of watching you fully take it in and receive it. A powerful exchange for both of you! xoxo

Love,

Kristin XO

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